This baby business is hard, y'all. I often times feel myself trying to do everything right that I overlook what's really important.
Yesterday, I was in the midst of a breakdown all day. I love my kids, they are the best thing to ever happen to me. I relish in my time with them; but I am a closeted introvert and I need time by myself. I need quiet. I crave it. Taking time for myself just doesn't happen. I'm either playing with kids, running errands, spending time with my husband, volunteering or hanging out with my family. All things that top the priority list but for my kids sake, time for myself has got to be on that list.
Last night B came home and put the girl to bed while I wrestled the boy. He then came in, took the boy and told me to go. But you know what, I didn't know what to do. I've entangled myself so much in being momma that I literally could not think of what to do. I can't remember the last time I read it even bought a book, I had no shoes dvr-ed, I was in such a funk I didn't want to work out, I couldn't think of a thing.
So I put in my headphones and hopped in the bath. I so needed it!
The boy kept me all night last night and when we woke up...he had cut his first tooth! My sweet boy is growing up way too fast.
B took the kids again this morning so I could go try on a bridesmaid dress. Again, I realized how important it is for me to have that.
I came home, after 2 hours!, and felt refreshed. With no sleep, I came in the door and make my little's lunch, went for a run and put the boy down for a nap. It was a breath of fresh air. In order to be the best mom I can, I have got to start making myself a priority. I have to find time for myself, even if it's a run. I mean, has 30 minutes of independent play or tv time ever hurt a kid. I think not.
Thinking about it, there are so many things I would love to do but put on the back burner because I don't have the time. I want to cook more, read more, find consistent time to work out, and let's face it, watch some trashy TV. Can you say Real Housewives of ANYTHING?!
This is my resolution, take care of myself so I can take better care of my family. So tell me, how do you find your time? What do you enjoy doing?